Toxic Love - Author KAI Speaks on Love & Poetry

Poetry is my first love because writing starts with an emotion.
Normally, there is an indescribably emotion that I seek to form into words or thought and it becomes a poetic idea or phrase. And from there a character or storyline is born. But, when I don't have time for a fully developed story, I can still explore that emotion, encapsulate it into a poem. The following poem is heartbreak, at its peak. I included this in  Daughter of the Game Prequel: In the Shadows.

Toxic Love by KAI

How do you stop love’s rollercoaster, when there are no brakes?

How do you get off, when he won’t slow down?

Steady accelerating with each loop and every dive

Spinning and shaking, twisting and turning

Transforming the thrill into a continuous nightmare

Repeating the same pattern over and over and over

Each time more exaggerated and delirious

Each time more dangerous than before

Excitement turns to dread

Adrenaline rush turns to fear

You finally realize that he can’t stop

Won’t ever stop

Making you sick, dizzy, nauseous

Something once so intriguing

Is now nothing more than a death trap

How do you escape?

There is no safe way out, nothing to save you

When you’re finally thrown, or your heart finally gives out

When the spin finally snaps your neck, or your sanity finally breaks

Because on his ride, your death is inevitable

Accept that there is no safe escape

You have only one option

When love’s rollercoaster is at its lowest point

Tuck in your chin, close your eyes, pray


And hope you survive the fall

© 2014 All rights reserved. Toxic Love poem reprinted by permission of the author, KAI.  Do not reproduce, copy or use without the author's written permission. This excerpt is used for promotional purposes only.

Check out  Daughter of the Game 3 by KAI


About the Author

is the author of the critically acclaimed Daughter of the Game series (Daughter of the Game I, II, III and Prequel) and The Loudest Silence. KAI's story Twisted Loyalty is featured in Gutta Mamis, published by Strebor in the Streetz (Simon and Schuster). She is also a contributing author to Solo Shivers and That Good Grind by Wilson.

She is a nationally recognized poet and was named AAMBC's 2013 Poet of the Year for her Peaceful Resolution collection. Her poem Pre-Destiny, was featured in the April 2008 issue of Essence Magazine.

KAI has served as a Guest Reviewer for RAWSISTAWZ Reviewers. An alumni of Hampton University, SUNY Brockport and Georgetown University Law Center, she is a licensed attorney in two states and a proud parent.

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